LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

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A few weeks ago I got a digital perm from the Korean salon tony & jackey. Last day of the promo (or so I thought) and I figured why the hell not. I mean it saves me from the fluffy hair and I basically don’t have to fix my hair. Which was never meant to be straight, I was born with wavy hair but too many blunt cuts when I was young turned it what it is now.

Monica Yun, their senior hairstylist, did my hair in this blunt fringe that goes well with my newly wavy hair. She was so nice even if we can’t communicate clearly. Oh… and she gave me a big discount. I think some types of hair require a pre-treatment before getting a perm. I got a discount for that since it’s needed and I kept saying no (and they wont take no for an answer). hahahahha… I got my hair for a pretty good price I think.

The digital perm, hair treatment and haircut (since she wanted to cut my bangs short because it was cuter she said 0.o). I’ve always wanted to try that style… too high-maintenance though.

 

mistula inspired me to post this...

i love mistula <3

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the doll of the name of lucifer

embraced by your arms, you watched over my sleeping face.
heigth: 39 cm, but really 165 cm.
my name is lucifer.
dressed in devil's clothes, your pleasing,
embraceable doll.

i've endured everything to be with you
to live, theres no other way. i endure it...
according to your wishes i continue on as a doll
so won't you love me even a little?

you took my cheek to your breast, everynight I counted your heartbeats.
i'm alive, notice me. yet, i can't speak to you.
i've been staring at you forever
but i, like a toy, can't open my heart to you.

I hid my pain and tears
just a doll to be held by you,
theres no other way. i endure it...
according to your wishes i've become an object.
somehow, please hold the real me too.

can i have you? can i not?
because to you i'm not a human, right?
ever since the day you decided I was your bisque doll,
blood won't flow from my wounds, and on sad days I can't cry.

do I, with a face like a mannequin, not have a heart?
ah, i might as well not have one at all
with this kind of pain.
and so, your established rules:
"don't talk, don't eat, don't move, don't even breath.
my cute lucifer.."

i understand. i'm your trifle plaything.
there's no other way, i love you.
according to your wishes, i've killed my own self
to become your object.
so, won't you please love the real me too?

since the day you threw me against the wall, my heart has been in pieces.
but as you see my broken heart, you feel bad.
wow, with just some glue you heal me
so won't you love me a little? your lucifer.

tonight as well, embraced by your arms, you silently watch over me.
heigth: 39 cm, but really 165 cm.
my name is lucifer.
to be held by my beloved, just for this i've become a doll.
foolish little lucifer.

( romaji )

This was given to me by someone...

( OBSCURE: A Tale... A Portrait...  )

-- The Vampire with Folded Wings

-- english --

Of course,
It's obvious that it's a dream;
Candle in one hand, I ascend the spiral staircase.

In a castle deep in the hungry forests,
You lurk, hidden in the tower's corner,
Forever wandering in search for living blood,
Your pale skin, my beloved Vampire.

You are aware of Satan's plots, yet,
You descend the stairs in search of sacrifice.

With injured wings you abandon to the sky,
Open those eyes that I want to know the color of.

If you desire, if for your sake,
You turn away from God. You deceive the world,
So, reach for this hand, don't let go,
Please don't die, my Vampire

Of course,
Its obvious that its a dream;
Even so, in the midst of the dream,
I go and forget.

You carry in your mouth dripping red blood.
Please drink with your sickly lips.

If your desire, if for your sake,
You turn away from God. You deceive the world,
So, reach for this hand, don't let go,
Please don't die, my Vampire

If you desire, if for your sake,
Give and show me what there is...*

Of course a dream is a dream...
It is...
Like this...
A Dream...
Even so...

* not so sure about this...

( --romaji-- )

I finally had a practice with my sire! After losing hope that our timelines would ever agree on each other… and that he’s busy.

(Why do I call him sire? for those who are curious... I’d rather call him sire than "sensei". *shudder*. I’m more familiar with the term "maker" but he preferred "sire" instead.)

We had practice at dawn’s house which is near red. I think it was for 4-9:30 p.m.?? Or was it until 10?? I don’t think i could really tell all the details. I sang quite a number of songs on my own... or with my sire. He didn’t want to sing at first but I persuaded him a bit. hehehe... he sang the final on his own! He was great! I’m intimidated really when he's listening to me sing. I can’t move at all!!

He insisted that i do some psychological stuff to help "crack my shell". (wheee~ my band sent me to the shrink!! ^_^) this involves him being blindfolded while is sing, after that I’ll sing another one while he’s watching and then I’m blindfolded while I’m singing. i get his point. He has my support and all in trying to do so. Besides I’m quite interested in how he'd do it. Dawn said that both I and my sire are stubborn (evidence: he insisted that I growl… I insisted that I can’t. At least, not that day… ) Both of us had dominant personalities according to dawn. Hmm… I think I should be the more submissive one since I am the “childe”.

It was brutal (for me!) but i learned a lot of things. I’m still learning so don’t expect anything just because of one day~

Anyway, I just got this awhile ago… sire said that he couldn’t play with his “childe” for the whole December… busy… gig… his “childe” would play all alone then.